Month: November 2016

The Night We Met

Before quoting the lyrics of this ditty by Lord Huron, first I will provide all of you [my faithful & loyal & zealous readers] with a quotation from a man by the name of John Calvin, “When any one falls [and repents] he will ever find God propitious to him, as soon as he cries to him; but when with obstinate minds we pursue our own course, and give no place to repentance, we close up the door of mercy against ourselves.” [commenting on Micah 3:4 …see also Ps.66:18].

I am not the only traveler
Who has not repaid his debt
I’ve been searching for a trail to follow again
Take me back to the night we met
And then I can tell myself
What the hell I’m supposed to do
And then I can tell myself
Not to ride along with you
I had all and then most of you
Some and now none of you
Take me back to the night we met
I don’t know what I’m supposed to do
Haunted by the ghost of you
Take me back to the night we met
When the night was full of terrors
And your eyes were filled with tears
When you had not touched me yet
Take me back to the night we met
I had all and then most of you
Some and now none of you
Take me back to the night we met
I don’t know what I’m supposed to do
Haunted by the ghost of you
Take me back to the night we met

Devouring Timber?

“The wood…taught us about survival, about overcoming difficulty, about prevailing over adversity, but it also taught us something about the underlying reason for surviving in the first place. Something about infinite beauty, about undying grace, about things larger and greater than ourselves. About the reasons we were all here.”

“The ability to yield, to bend, to give way, to accommodate, he said, was sometimes a source of strength in men as well as in wood, so long as it was helmed by inner resolve and by principle.”

“What mattered more than how hard a man rowed was how well everything he did in the boat harmonized with what the other fellows were doing. And a man couldn’t harmonize with his crewmates unless he opened his heart to them. He had to care about his crew.”

“He suggested that Joe think of a well-rowed race as a symphony, and himself as just one player in the orchestra. If one fellow in an orchestra was playing out of tune, or playing at a different tempo, the whole piece would naturally be ruined. That’s the way it was with rowing. What mattered more than how hard a man rowed was how well everything he did in the boat harmonized with what the other fellows were doing.”

Max just couldn’t do it …he couldn’t bring himself to admit that he was disappointed (for to admit such a thing was to expose himself …the fact that he was not God …the fact that he was NOT in control of every detail and nuance in life …the fact that he wasn’t even in control of the main and most primary stuff – – – > all of this would be out in the open for everyone to see. Even max himself couldn’t bear to see it. Max knew full well that it was true, but knowing the truth is one thing …seeing the truth is another, and seeing this was – in Max’s estimation – absolutely unbearable).

Jenny had not yet cultivated a robust/healthy distrust of herself …therefore everyone in her life suffered from her relentless efforts to put positive spin on everything and everyone she ever encountered.




Participation #Always15.5




PtPoG – – – > Surfing. Chef. Doctor.


Batman VS ra’s al ghul [#blm] ? DNR?



WHAT’S YOUR SHAME PROTOCOL [avoidance; wallow; belligerence; quiet; double-down; reversal; etc.]? – have you dug down as far as self-loathing yet?


How robust is your healthy distrust of self? [Jn. 6:68-69]


Inviting (come see)

Delegating (do)

Encouraging (did!)


Have you seen Flight?

What’s uber savory / compelling to you? Why? /// u seek to understand its will !?

Bottom you out – – – > so many times when you find yourself coming to the end of a thing [failing] – you find that it is not the prelude to the actual end — it’s the means by which salvation occurs #1224

Critique 2016 Issue #5

Things that stood out to me:

Feeding our souls with what? What does ‘feeding your soul’ look like?

Intentionally seeking to sharpen my ability to see beauty in a broken world.


…Wanting to push-back, with as much grace as possible, in daily life.

*Persevering in pushing back against the habit of instant answers.



What are the easy things to SEEK SHARPENING our ABILITIES for???


Although we’d never put it this boldly, we actually believe that a Christian can consistently refuse to give beauty the time it requires, can hold undeveloped views of creativity and culture, can insist that “what I like” is a sufficient standard for art – and here’s the kicker – we actually believe that such a philistine can still be regarded as a mature and maturing follower of Christ.

God is never not infinitely wise. God’s truth is never false or shallow …but always LIVED. We shall not encounter God’s revelation as strictly rational because it goes far beyond all reasoning into a mystery of divine glory that is rational but beyond human knowing. Beauty is the resplendent glory of God Most High. …Beauty is a signal of transcendence, a sign that something beyond the here and now exists and can be embraced. It is one reason why the Scriptures insist that unless we learn to BE STILL, we cannot know God. Beauty is unhurried, delicate, and allusive, so quiet contemplation is necessary to plumb its depths. …the pain of searing loss is that we so often stare directly past beauty; we look at glory but see nothing.

Happiness has little to do with fun & amusement and a lot to do with hard work, perseverance, and a virtuous life.

How much less interesting the Gospels would be if Jesus had given straightforward answers to people.

The longer one lives and the more one confronts life’s frustrations and problems, the harder idealism is. …there is an ever-looming temptation to slip into autopilot, to stop caring because caring is harder than not caring.

At the 2016 Rochester L’Abri Conference Andrew Fellows identified what he called Five Key Questions of the Heart – – – > 5 QUESTIONS OF THE HEART …A PROJECT OF SIGNIFICANCE THAT EACH & EVERY PERSON ON THE PLANET IS EMBARKED ON OVER THE COURSE OF THEIR ENTIRE LIFE.

  1. Why? the personal meaning project [the deep unrelenting desire for a measure of personal significance.
  2. What for? the purpose project [trying to make sense of our life and work …does what I do matter or make a difference?] …this is why expressions of gratitude can mean so much, while having all we do be ignored or dismissed can feel like being smothered in the dust of death.
  3. Who am I? the hero project [the hope that, in the final analysis, I stand out somehow in the endless crowd].
  4. How should we then live? the good life project [the quest to find some measure of fulfillment and satisfaction for a life well lived].
  5. How can I be saved? the salvation project [it is seen in the quest for youthfulness, fitness, and longevity that so many obsess over, and in the myriad forms of distraction and addiction that numb so many].

Denis Haack thinks Andrew Fellow’s list is a good one, and that it provides clarity in understanding the human condition, and clarity in understanding our own hearts. Denis Haack was so energized by this rigorous and thoughtful list of questions that he came up with 4 more questions of the heart:

  1. Am I loved? the relationship project [to feel unloved and unlovable is to sever the chords of friendship and community and to threaten an unrelieved loneliness. …the need to be loved and to love is a yearning we cannot escape, and it can be argued that this quest is at the root of all the deepest human desires and needs].
  2. Where is home? the place to rest project [we all long for a safe climate where we are free from the tyranny of incessant performance].
  3. Can justice be achieved? the justice project [Habakkuk was very interested in the answer to this question; and the yearning for justice seems to be instinctive and innate in people, showing up even in small children who feel slighted by playmates and parents].
  4. What is that? the creature project [this is where we can’t help but wonder – as instinctively curious creatures – what our fellow creatures are, and how they work, and how they fit into things …e.g. humming birds, pistol shrimp, bumble bees, leviathan, etc.]. In this category there is also an explicit opportunity to notice how arrogant we are, observing that whereas a sparrow is content to be the sparrow he was created to be, we have refused to accept God’s Word concerning how we are to be and to live. God talks about this kind of thing in Jeremiah 8:7 – – – > Even the stork in the heavens knows her times, and the turtledove, swallow, and crane keep the time of their coming, but my people know not the rules of the LORD. Many professing Christians testify to having ‘met God’ in such a way that curious questions about God cease to be questions for them, and the impression is given that, if the answers are not fully settled for you, you aren’t as spiritual as they are.

For the full article by Denis Haack click HERE.



why did God ordain for that woman to hurt me?
…in part (perhaps primarily) because I IDOLIZE ppl. I deify ppl. I don’t just want them to like me …I need them to like me. People pleaser. BUT GOD …He loves me!🙂 …so He ordains for ppl to wound me and tell me I’m wrong. Also – – – (and it truly is secondary to the deep deep idolatry that God is lovingly pruning out of my life) there is the pesky fact that I am very very often wrong and need to be told that I am wrong …and even when that woman was telling me I was wrong – GOD ORDAINED for her to convey it to me in a way that was extremely mean and cruel …because she (as I was in my original email) speaking (in part …and perhaps primarily) from a place of FEELING SMALL and IN PAIN.


carried lots of baggage. lots of bad decisions. lots of regrets. kept drifting back to the same old mistakes. incurable wound dominated & defined her life.

Hosea came and sought her. Hosea married her. Hosea didn’t just justify her, Hosea incorporated her into his life. Hosea did not reject her – Hosea wholistically redeemed her.


What do you decide to do with your self-loathing? Your anger and your fear and anxiety (your wrath and fretting)? When you feel these things – how do you decide to proceed? How do you choose to use your energy? The invitation is to join the most powerful Persons in existence (The LORD) in LAMENTING; and thereby SAVOR how He turns sorrow into joy, lamentation in laughter, & grief into glory.


Corrupt leader. Is granted unprecedented power. Unfettered corruption. Endorsing his corruption and gluttonous zeal for oppression.

We are outraged?

	“Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

	“Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted.

	“Blessed are the meek, for they shall inherit the earth.

	“Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they shall be satisfied.

(Matthew 5:3-6)

God saved that corrupt leader and made him our advocate!
God blessed him with Matthew 5!

What to EXPECT…

A Very Personal & Particular Dimension of the Question: What’s the deal with God’s Judgment?

What Can I Expect Life to Be Like B/T now and The Day of God’s Judgment? 2 Tim.3all who desire to live a godly life in Christ Jesus will be persecuted. Acts14strengthening the souls of the disciples, encouraging them to continue in the faith, and saying that through many tribulations we must enter the kingdom of God. John15Jesus said, “They persecuted Me …they’ll persecute you!”John16“In this world you will have trouble.” Romans8those who are heirs with Christ will suffer with Christ. Rev.1 – John identifies himself as a brother and partner in the tribulation.

Is God saying, “Go Manufacture some Martyrdom? …Produce more Persecution on yourself? Probably Not… But He’s Definitely saying, “Your PLAN to live a life where youSUCCEEDat getting everyone to like you is NOT going to happen! Jealous Affection for Comfort & Convenience is NOT PleasingToHim [trans] God is Aiming @, & Accomplishing, SomethingSoMuchBIGGER than Our Superficial Versions of “Satisfaction”

2 Cor. 4For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal.