Month: September 2016

Margie Etc.

by now i panned to be a much better person than one who can’t stand up to attack or is capsized by every trouble great or small.

what I seem to need over and over are reminders of who’s in control here.

i place myself under the mentorship of the psalms – to practice better listening to God.

…the psalms apparently weren’t invented for my whimsical heart and pinched brain.

i’ve cherry-picked verses that speak to my circumstances and leave others out. (psalmectomy).

Psalms have existed for thousands of years as a means by which God’s people learn to respond to life by taking them, all of them, before God not according to our emotions or current circumstances, but methodically one by one, line by line.

Psalm-prayer enters into the way things are, and finds that the way things are is pretty bad.

THE PSALMS…they are the means by which the church has always and ever been expected to live in prayer before God. …BUT don’t you think that BY NOW – IF you were a serious Xn you’d be spiritually above it all? – – – > The Psalms cry out a resounding NO! …the Psalm writers repeatedly move from anger and depression and questioning life and God to erupting in praise.

DAVID’s RESUME – shepherd, guerilla fighter, court musician, king.

we easily forget what was done for us and why.

…2 believe in God’s love for us despite our circumstances

Ps.10 – why o Lord, do you stand far off? why do you hide yourself in times of trouble?

Psalms are not private devotions – – – prayer begins in community. Praying the Psalms – I step into a great steam of people using the same words as those who have worshiped together for centuries.

Silence (Ps.4.4) —> nothing more need be said. no explanations, no boasts, no apologies. This is who you are. there is something more important than liking or not liking yourself.

Knowing how it all works is not the goal. Obedience to God is the goal (relying on – trusting in – God is the goal).

I only pray when I am in trouble – and I am in trouble all the time.


What’s It REALLY About

What’s the Sub-text here?

One of the best questions in the universe!

Always good.

Presenting P. – – – > WTSTH?

Romany Malco’s 18-20 min. background breakdown [“How did we get here?”]

“The study concluded that foot patrol programs improved the relationship between citizens and law enforcement, enhanced the ability of the police force to enforce the law, changed how citizens viewed officers, and reduced both the fear of crime and the number of violent crimes committed. Additionally, the data show that foot patrols even have psychological benefits for officers, as they have more opportunities for positive interaction with the local community.”–Anthony Bradley

There’s something (a step @ least) in the health direction.

#Walking is just downright good! HEALTHY.

For yin this hope we were saved. Now zhope that is seen is not hope. For who hopes for what he sees?

he saved us, enot because of works done by us in righteousness, but faccording to his own mercy, by gthe washing of regeneration and hrenewal of the Holy Spirit,

and by which iyou are being saved, if you jhold fast to the word I preached to you—kunless you believed in vain.

For we are the aroma of Christ to God among mthose who are being saved and among nthose who are perishing,

therefore, behold, I will again
		do wonderful things with this people,
		with wonder upon wonder;
	and the wisdom of their wise men shall perish,
		and the discernment of their discerning men shall be hidden.”
Isa. 29.14

	For Jews demand signs and Greeks seek wisdom, but we preach Christ crucified, a stumbling block to Jews and folly to Gentiles,

1 Cor. 1:22-23





Lack of Faith/Trust/Belief


Don’t Laugh Enough (#WhySoSerious?)

Idolatry of Jadedness





Drama Queenistic/Mr.Catastrophize

Feeling like ‘i’m the only one who cares’ [ARROGANCE]

Must feed on WoG to nourish your soul and re-program your mind.



I.D./Justification …don’t work for what you already have.

Isa. 30:15

…one basic question – – – > will you sacrifice efficiency? *Rehumanized framework/thinking?


How is God making you look like a fool right now?

Jericho – – – > Preparation? Parade? Prostitute?


Don’t take yourself so seriously (WesAnderson helps me here).




Walking in the woods. Never met this bear before. The bear was just sitting there. Passive. Peaceful. But everyone (EVERYONE) was scared & intimidated & had their defense systems up! We didn’t know this bear personally. Talked to other bears who said (admitted?) that – even they – are suspicious of bears. Bears are big and powerful. Compared to bears we are all weaker vessels. Is the ______ BIG ENOUGH for everyone to ADMIT this? *Are we not willing to include that one slice of truth in the conversation (…the fact that bears don’t ACT like BML when it comes to their fears and suspicions and actions and reactions to one another)? Are we capable of conversing honestly about this fact/truth without BEING OVERCOME WITH DEFENSIVENESS AND EMOTION? *Think back to the incapability of non-defensive (emotions in their proper place) conversation between Rhonda & Tyler & Carrie back on Rising Oak Dr.!

When we say that the Gospel is big enough to have a conversation (honest & transparent dialogue) …what we ought to mean is a discussion without Rampant Emotional-ISM & Unfettered Defensiveness.

*Puppet – Use it2 Endorse Our Agenda – “Demanding An Ally when it’s offering a Master & Judge”

#MasterGivesUsHisWord- – – > TellsUsToLayUpWoGInOurHearts – – – > Lk.24.27 & *Fact that ppl didn’t Recognize Him till after Bible Study – Who He was.


3-thingsThatAttackJaneStuddock’sConversion[“Careful/Cautious”;Resume;’TheDirectorWillBePleased’ ::: a thing being made that does not have a choice in the matter*

Liturgies on offer cool convenient consumption Corporation capitalism

We have the grace of Freedom in Christ to laugh and lament

Evangelism question have you ever heard of Durian

Repentance – (1) others/blame (2) shell co./hollow man (3) the real u

Assessment of arrival crush personal worship


Evangelism question… Have you ever seen the movie flight!?


Riots in CLT

Anger. Where did it come from? Inescapable insecurity & helplessness (weakness/smallness/vulnerability/dependency). Humans are Zombi-esque in their ravenous lust to feel autonomous (anti-dependent/anti-vulnerable/anti-susceptible/anti-powerless&weak). Delusional… we GLUT ourselves on the myth that we are CAPABLE of Control & Correctness. We are the Chaldeans – – – > we are dreaded and fearsome; our justice and dignity go forth from themselves (Habakkuk 1:7).



Is there anyone we can turn to who is more powerful than us (perhaps even self-existent, self-sustaining, infinitely and perfectly powerful and wise, incomprehensibly true, good, and beautiful)?


If so …does that being/person(s) SAY, Reveal, Communicate anything to WRETCHED-WEAKLINGS like us?

“You are weak. I compare you to sheep. And not ‘just sheep’, but sheep amongst wolves. Imagine it. Ponder it. You are a sheep surrounded by wolves. How do you feel? Threatened? Defensive? Scared? Paranoid? Paralyzed w/ Fear? Suspicious? Insecure?

You want to complain:

O LORD, how long shall I cry for help,
		and you will not hear?
	Or cry to you “Violence!”
		and you will not save?
	Why do you make me see iniquity,
		and why do you idly look at wrong?
	Destruction and violence are before me;
		strife and contention arise.
	So the law is paralyzed,
		and justice never goes forth.
	For the wicked surround the righteous;
		so justice goes forth perverted.
	*Habakkuk 1:2-4

Here’s the Lord’s reply:

You will be oppressed. You will be delivered over to their unjust courts and flogged. You will be in the human hands of a dreaded and fearsome people; whose justice and dignity go forth from themselves (people whose natural orientations and appetites are just like yours). Your privilege amidst this oppression is to not come proclaiming the testimony of God with lofty speech or wisdom. …but decide to know nothing except Jesus Christ and him crucified. Be with people in weakness and in fear and much trembling, and your speech and your message are not to be in plausible words of wisdom, but in demonstration of the Spirit and of power, so that real faith might not rest in the wisdom of men but in the power of God (1 Corinthians 2:2-5).

When you are oppressed do not be anxious how you are to speak or what you are to say, for what you are to say will be given to you in that hour. For it is not you who speak, but the Spirit of your Father speaking through you.

The oppression will strike VERY CLOSE TO HOME – – – > Brother will deliver brother over to death, and the father his child, and children will rise against parents and have them put to death, and you will be hated by all for my name’s sake. But the one who endures to the end will be saved. When they persecute you in one town, flee to the next, for truly, I say to you, you will not have gone through all the towns of Israel before the Son of Man comes. A disciple is not above his teacher, nor a servant above his master. It is enough for the disciple to be like his teacher, and the servant like his master. If they have called the master of the house Beelzebul, how much more will they malign those of his household (Matthew 10:19-25).

So have no fear of them, for nothing is covered that will not be revealed, or hidden that will not be known. What I tell you in the dark, say in the light, and what you hear whispered, proclaim on the housetops. And do not fear those who kill the body but cannot kill the soul. Rather fear him who can destroy both soul and body in hell. Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? And not one of them will fall to the ground apart from your Father. But even the hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear not, therefore; you are of more value than many sparrows. So everyone who acknowledges me before men, I also will acknowledge before my Father who is in heaven, but whoever denies me before men, I also will deny before my Father who is in heaven (Matthew 10:26-33).

Do not think that I have come to bring peace to the earth. I have not come to bring peace, but a sword. For I have come to set a man against his father, and a daughter against her mother, and a daughter-in-law against her mother-in-law. And a person’s enemies will be those of his own household. Whoever loves father or mother more than me is not worthy of me, and whoever loves son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me. And whoever does not take his cross and follow me is not worthy of me. Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for my sake will find it (Matthew 10:34-39).

We are ANGRY because we FEAR man.

We are ANXIOUS because we FEAR man.

We are ANGRY & ANXIOUS because we are FIXATED on man.

We are sincerely invited to FIX OUR EYES on Jesus, the Author and Perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is seated at the right hand of the throne of God. …All authority in heaven and on earth belongs to Him.


*Brace Yourselves…

There are some extreme things about this King. SHOCKING, Unbelievable, Unprecedented, Exceedingly UNFAIR, hard-to-swallow things about this King.

For example: everyone (even & especially criminals/wicked/depraved/desperate/wretched/needy people) who thirsts is WHOLEHEARTEDLY invited to come to the King. Without any resume of personal acclaim and accomplishments, without any self-manufactured merit. And in the presence of this completely pure King who will punish all unrighteousness – cutting the wicked into pieces, putting them in that place there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth – the King will say to these lowly, needy, desperate beggars who helpless hang on Him, “come to the waters; he who has no money, come, buy and eat! Come, buy wine and milk without money and without price.”

Seek the LORD while he may be found; call upon him while he is near; let the wicked forsake his way, and the unrighteous man his thoughts; let him return to the LORD, that he may have compassion on him, and to our God, for he will abundantly pardon. For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the LORD. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts (Isaiah 55:6-9).


In June 2015 the people of Emanuel AME Church in Charleston SC were in the type of situation Jesus promises His people in Matthew 10.

How did they respond to their murderous and relentlessly evil persecutor?

They forgave him.

They advised him to repent (be repulsed by his sins).

They asked God directly to have mercy on his soul.

They told the God-hating, racist, murderer that if he repented and confessed his need for Jesus, that he would  “Be OK.”

Church member Anthony Thompson said, “I forgive you. My family forgives you …We would like you to take this opportunity to repent. … Do that, and you’ll be better off than you are right now.”

Church member Felecia Sanders said, “As we said in Bible Study, we enjoyed you …may God have mercy on you.”

Just as my fellow family members (Anthony & Felecia …more PRIMARY than their ethnicity is there relationship to their ETERNAL FAMILY IN CHRIST [which, per their request very well may include Dylan Roof!]) invited a hate-filled oppressor to repent and believe in Jesus – so I also invite the hate-filled, angry people in Uptown CLT to repent and put all their hope and trust in Jesus (the Author & Perfecter of their own INFINITELY-NEEDED Atonement, and Executor of Perfect Justice on the Day of Judgement).

Let not steadfast love and faithfulness forsake you;
		bind them around your neck;
		write them on the tablet of your heart.
	So you will find favor and good success
		in the sight of God and man.
	Trust in the LORD with all your heart,
		and do not lean on your own understanding.
	In all your ways acknowledge him,
		and he will make straight your paths.
	Be not wise in your own eyes;
		fear the LORD, and turn away from evil.
	It will be healing to your flesh
		and refreshment to your bones.
	*Proverbs 3:3-8
	Though the fig tree should not blossom,
		nor fruit be on the vines,
	the produce of the olive fail
		and the fields yield no food,
	the flock be cut off from the fold
		and there be no herd in the stalls,
	yet I will rejoice in the LORD;
		I will take joy in the God of my salvation.
	GOD, the Lord, is my strength;
		he makes my feet like the deer's;
		he makes me tread on my high places.
	To the choirmaster: with stringed instruments.
	*Habakkuk 3:17-19


True reconciliation exposes the awfulness, the abuse, the pain, the degradation, the truth …It is worthwhile, because in the end dealing with the real situation helps to bring real healing.

Desmond Tutu


Therefore, O king, be pleased to accept my advice: Renounce your sins by doing what is right, and your wickedness by being kind to the oppressed. It may be that then your prosperity will continue.



“Laugh and grow strong”
Ignatius of Loyola


What matters SUPREMELY, therefore, is not, in the last analysis, the fact that I know God but the larger fact which underlies it – the fact that He knows me. I am graven on the palms of His hands. I am never out of His mind. All my knowledge of Him DEPENDS on His sustained initiative in knowing me… there is no moment when His eye is off me, or His attention distracted from me, and no moment, therefore, when His care falters.

JI Packer


Whenever you feel guilty, even if it is because you have consciously committed a sin, a serious sin, something you have kept doing many times, NEVER let the devil deceive you by allowing him to discourage you. My beloved, may every fall …always become for us a small step toward a higher degree of perfection.

Maximilian Kolbe


When ppl have been given an internal image and vision of who they are and where they are going, then they can stretch themselves to do the exploits of God.

Craig Hill


FEAR [bad fear] IS BASED ON LIES. Fear is a profound & effective form of worship (obsessed fixation).


Oh, good gentle Jesus! Let popes, pastors, and everyone else blush for shame at our foolishness and pride and self-indulgence, when we see such generosity, goodness, and boundless love on our Creator’s part!

Catherine of Siena


And now, O LORD my God, thou hast made thy servant king instead of David my father: and I am but a little child: I do not know how to go out or come in.

King Solomon


Hoarding (unhealthy & daunting).

Golfing (miserable & can’t hide THE REAL YOU).

The ILLUSION of certainty.

SHERPA (shepherd) & Sprouts

Rising A’s – Sprouts (greenhaus) – Goal – Grow’em twd Forest (e.g. 10.5 ws)

Sherpa – incarnation – Like SoG. Mission Field, Missionary, Missional.

Operate with Shrewdness twd this mission field and segment (not separate) of the flock.

*Speak their language (missionary).

Learn Language, Love Littles, Lean into it, Lead them twd the man who tells us everything we’ve ever done.