Month: September 2015

“Fix You”

When you try your best but you don’t succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can’t sleep
Stuck in reverse

When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can’t replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
I will try to fix you

High up above or down below
When you’re too in love to let it go
But if you never try you’ll never know
Just what you’re worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I

Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you



He stole from her.  He lied to her.  He abused her (verbally & physically).  He stole from his neighbors.  He used the neighbors $ to buy her a sweater from Burlington Coat Factory!?  …Was this to “make-up” for his abuse?  Was this supposed to atone for his lies?  Was this suppose to be some cheap, shallow, Satanic version of an apology?  Was this compensation for NOT loving her like Jesus loves His bride?  She tolerates it.  She enables it.  She’s the victim AND the vice vendor.  What are the others supposed to do?  …It really seems like the others are helpless, weak, and small.  God is big, and we are small.

“Aspire to live quietly, and to mind your own affairs, and to work with your hands, as we instructed you, so that you may walk properly before outsiders and be dependent on no one.”

“For even when we were with you, we would give you this command: If anyone is not willing to work, let him not eat. For we hear that some among you walk in idleness, not busy at work, but busybodies.  Now such persons we command and encourage in the Lord Jesus Christ to do their work quietly and to earn their own living.”

Repentance is RISKY

Repentance is RISKY.  Vulnerable; fear of failure; rejection; awkward; tense; inconvenient; unknowns; weak.  Ps. 51 = risky …extremely risky.  Repentance is risky.  Too risky in fact.  So risky that we really will never repent unless we have the requisite security/trust.  Here we see (only by God’s grace) that faith must precede repentance.  Faith = put on Xs (illu: put on nuclear suit prior to stepping into nuclear zone) – the suit is your security …not you.

W (720)

F (1271)

A3 (720; 515)

W (2 12 9)

F (1224)







51 10 12


Good News. Unseen. Slow.

GOOD NEWS? really?  “good”?  …You really think so?  Why?  Why?  …don’t pretend.  Phonyezburg!  PhoRealzburg!

Life to the Fullest (“happy”)?  You’re happy?  For how long.  …faker!  – – – ok, I’ll ask questions instead of attacking you (wimp).  I’m the wimp.  I’m sorry.  But…

Endorsement of the destruction of person.

“…that doesn’t work for me.”  hmmmmmmmmmm.

WE SCORN THE UNSEEN (don’t we?).

“Follow Me and you will learn to do small things slowly over time.” – God (juxtapose w/ ‘getting large things done quickly’) …Margie suggests —> bake bread and relish the scent of real purpose and quiet beauty and peace (…another e.g. = go on [or perhaps even venture to take] a walk).

“In the midst of my non-sensational days there remains small surprises.” – Margie L. Haack

“Life at the table is life at its best.” – Shauna Niequist

REMEMBER – U GOTTA DUST FOR PRINTS (they don’t just advertise themselves).

Based on YOUR criteria… Would JESUS be a Christian?


Zombies, flying, invisibility.

“Every time we make the decision to love someone, we open ourselves to great suffering, because those we most love cause us not only great joy but also great pain. The greatest pain comes from leaving. When the child leaves home, when the husband or wife leaves for a long period of time or for good, when the beloved friend departs to another country or dies … the pain of the leaving can tear us apart.
Still, if we want to avoid the suffering of leaving, we will never experience the joy of loving. And love is stronger than fear, life stronger than death, hope stronger than despair. We have to trust that the risk of loving is always worth taking.”
Henri J.M. Nouwen

Officiating A “Gay” “Marriage” “Wedding” Ceremony

He had “agreed” to officiate.  The plans had been ambiguous.  The details were shrouded in fog.  The couple found the counseling bewildering.  But – at long last – the “wedding” day had arrived.  The preacher bypassed the introductory remarks – breaking Standard Wedding Ceremony Protocol – and He simply started reading:

Who has believed what he has heard from us? [Pause.  Long pause.  Looking around at various faces in the “sanctuary.”  Lingering pause].  And to whom has the arm of the Lord been revealed? …For he grew up before him like a young plant, and like a root out of dry ground [he reiterated the word “young!?”, “young??”, “dry?”]; he had no form or majesty that we should look at him, and no beauty that we should desire him [here he added the comment, “This is the groom.  The groom doesn’t attract us?? …no form?  no majesty?  no beauty that we should desire him?  Is that all??? …we simply can’t find a reason to desire him???“].  He was DESPISED and REJECTED by men [“Are you MEN?  Is anyone here not implicated in this despising and rejecting indictment?“]; a man of sorrows, and acquainted with grief; and as one from whom men hide their face he was despised, and we esteemed him not [“Why are we here today?  Are we here to esteem this …this killing?  this curse?  this undesirable?  this condemnation?  this definition of love?  this rejection?  this forsaken-ness?  …are we “authentic” …are we “true to ourselves”  …are we being honest about what we hate and what we “love”?].  Surely he has borne our griefs [“Were these griefs self-inflicted, or were we the victims?  Were we the primary wretch, or was someone else wretched toward us?”], and carried our sorrows; YET – we esteemed Him stricken, smitten by God, and afflicted [“We did it!  We killed Him!  We condemned Him!  We shouted ‘Crucify Him!’ We despised Him.  We desecrated Him with our pernicious pride!].  BUT… [“But!”].  He was pierced for our transgressions [“What transgressions? …We are ‘good’ …We are true to ourselves! …We are the victims!  …If He is helping transgressors, then this must be referring to those indecent, loveless, intolerant people – and IF He is helping them, then what do we have to do with Him???]; He was crushed for our iniquities; upon Him was the chastisement that brought us peace [“Chastisement is the conduit of peace??? …the necessity of a curse is what results in peace for us???  You thought that the absence of chastisement was how we arrived at peace, but this is promoting chastisement as the essential truth – something fundamental, something foundational, something upon which we are to be fixated”], and with His wounds we are healed.  All we like sheep have gone astray; we have turned – every one – to his own way; and the Lord has laid on Him the iniquity of us all.  He was oppressed, and He was afflicted, yet He opened not His mouth; like a lamb that is led to the slaughter, and like a sheep that before its shearers is silent, so He opened not His mouth.  By oppression and judgment He was taken away; and as for His generation, who considered that He was CUT OFF out of the land of the living, stricken for the transgression of My people?  And they made His grave with the wicked and with a rich man in His death, although He had done no violence, and there was no deceit in His mouth.  Yet it was the WILL OF THE LORD to CRUSH HIM [“Really?  This was God’s plan?  This was the WILL of the almighty God?  CRUSH?  Crush His beloved Son?  Crush Him?”]; He has put Him to grief; when His soul makes an offering for guilt [“Guilt?”], He shall see His offspring; He shall prolong His days; the will of the Lord shall prosper in His hand.  Out of the anguish of His soul He shall see and be satisfied; by His knowledge shall the righteous one, my servant, make many to be accounted righteous [“You NEED someone else to make you righteous? …You’re not sufficient?”], and He shall bear their iniquities [“What are YOUR iniquities?” …Do you actually have any?  Do you seriously believe that you have any, and especially any that would demand the blood of the only perfect man to have ever walked the planet?].  Therefore I will divide Him a portion with the many, and he shall divide the spoil with the strong, because He poured out His soul to death and was numbered with the transgressors; yet He bore the sin of many, and makes intercession for the transgressors [“Transgressors.  Transgressors.  Transgressors?  Transgressors!!?  Transgressors.”].

At this point the preacher – with eyes flooding – quietly stumbled from the front of the gathering and wept away unable to officially officiate the ceremony.

The couple had asked for a “Christian Ceremony.”  …Unexpectedly, they got exactly what they had asked for.

“The church is not built on the rock foundation of geniuses and influencers but of apostles and prophets. This should hardly be surprising, since the kingdom is not greater than its king, and the body is not greater than its head. When confronted by the gospel, the natural response from any culture is, “Can any good thing come out of Nazareth?” That’s true, come to think of it, even in Nazareth (Luke 4:24). And the natural counter-argument from the church is, “Come and see” (John 1:46). The kingdom of God dawns in trailer parks and refugee camps. That shouldn’t surprise us. The kingdom came to us not from a boardroom or a literary guild, but from a feeding trough and an execution stake.”
Russell D. Moore, Onward: Engaging the Culture without Losing the Gospel