Month: July 2015



by Wendell Berry

Some time ago Harper’s reprinted a short essay of mine in which I gave some of my reasons for refusing to buy a computer. Until that time, the vast numbers of people who disagree with my writings had mostly ignored them. An unusual number of people, however, neglected to ignore my insensitivity to the wonders of computer enhancement. Some of us, it seems, would be better off if we would just realize that this is already the best of all possible worlds, and is going to get even better if we will just buy the right equipment.

Harper’s published only five of the letters the editors received in response to my essay, and they published only negative letters. But of the twenty letters received by the Harper’s editors, who forwarded copies to me, three were favorable. This I look upon as extremely gratifying. If these letters may be taken as a fair sample, then one in seven of Harper’s readers agreed with me. If I had guessed beforehand, I would have guessed that my supporters would have been fewer than one in a thousand. And so I suppose, after further reflection, that my surprise at the intensity of the attacks on me is mistaken. There are more of us than I thought. Maybe there is even a “significant number” of us.

Only one of the negative letters seemed to me to have much intelligence in it. That one was from R. N. Neff of Arlington, Virginia, who scored a direct hit: “Not to be obtuse, but being willing to bare my illiterate soul for all to see, is there indeed a ‘work demonstrably better than Dante’s’. . .which was written on a Royal standard typewriter?” I like this retort so well that I am tempted to count it a favorable response, raising the total to four. The rest of the negative replies, like the five published ones, were more feeling than intelligent. Some of them, indeed, might be fairly described as exclamatory.

One of the letter writers described me as “a fool” and “doubly a fool,” but fortunately misspelled my name, leaving me a speck of hope that I am not the “Wendell Barry” he was talking about. Two others accused me of self-righteousness, by which they seem to have meant that they think they are righter than I think I am. And another accused me of being more concerned about my own moral purity than with “any ecological effect,” thereby making the sort of razor- sharp philosophical distinction that could cause a person to be elected president.

But most of my attackers deal in feelings either feminist or technological, or both. The feelings expressed seem to be representative of what the state of public feeling currently permits to be felt, and of what public rhetoric currently permits to be said. The feelings, that is, are similar enough, from one letter to another, to be thought representative, and as representative letters they have an interest greater than the quarrel that occasioned them.

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Without exception, the feminist letters accuse me of exploiting my wife, and they do not scruple to allow the most insulting implications of their indictment to fall upon my wife. They fail entirely to see that my essay does not give any support to their accusation—or if they see it, they do not care. My essay, in fact, does not characterize my wife beyond saying that she types my manuscripts and tells me what she thinks about them. It does not say what her motives are, how much work she does, or whether or how she is paid. Aside from saying that she is my wife and that I value the help she gives me with my work, it says nothing about our marriage. It says nothing about our economy.

There is no way, then, to escape the conclusion that my wife and I are subjected in these letters to a condemnation by category. My offense is that I am a man who receives some help from his wife; my wife’s offense is that she is a woman who does some work for her husband—which work, according to her critics and mine, makes her a drudge, exploited by a conventional subservience. And my detractors have, as I say, no evidence to support any of this. Their accusation rests on a syllogism of the flimsiest sort: my wife helps me in my work, some wives who have helped their husbands in their work have been exploited, therefore my wife is exploited.

This, of course, outrages justice to about the same extent that it insults intelligence. Any respectable system of justice exists in part as a protection against such accusations. In a just society nobody is expected to plead guilty to a general indictment, because in a just society nobody can be convicted on a general indictment. What is required for a just conviction is a particular accusation that can be proved. My accusers have made no such accusation against me.

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That feminists or any other advocates of human liberty and dignity should resort to insult and injustice is regrettable. It is equally regrettable that all of the feminist attacks on my essay implicitly deny the validity of two decent and probably necessary possibilities: marriage as a state of mutual help, and the household as an economy.

Marriage, in what is evidently its most popular version, is now on the one hand an intimate “relationship” involving (ideally) two successful careerists in the same bed, and on the other hand a sort of private political system in which rights and interests must be constantly asserted and defended. Marriage, in other words, has now taken the form of divorce: a prolonged and impassioned negotiation as to how things shall be divided. During their understandably temporary association, the “married” couple will typically consume a large quantity of merchandise and a large portion of each other.

The modern household is the place where the consumptive couple do their consuming. Nothing productive is done there. Such work as is done there is done at the expense of the resident couple or family, and to the profit of suppliers of energy and household technology. For entertainment, the inmates consume television or purchase other consumable diversion elsewhere.

There are, however, still some married couples who understand themselves as belonging to their marriage, to each other, and to their children. What they have they have in common, and so, to them, helping each other does not seem merely to damage their ability to compete against each other. To them, “mine” is not so powerful or necessary a pronoun as “ours.”

This sort of marriage usually has at its heart a household that is to some extent productive. The couple, that is, makes around itself a household economy that involves the work of both wife and husband, that gives them a measure of economic independence and self-employment, a measure of freedom, as well as a common ground and a common satisfaction. Such a household economy may employ the disciplines and skills of housewifery, of carpentry and other trades of building and maintenance, of gardening and other branches of subsistence agriculture, and even of woodlot management and wood-cutting. It may also involve a “cottage industry” of some kind, such as a small literary enterprise.

It is obvious how much skill and industry either partner may put into such a household and what a good economic result such work may have, and yet it is a kind of work now frequently held in contempt. Men in general were the first to hold it in contempt as they departed from it for the sake of the professional salary or the hourly wage, and now it is held in contempt by such feminists as those who attacked my essay. Thus farm wives who help to run the kind of household economy that I have described are apt to be asked by feminists, and with great condescension, “But what do you do?” By this they invariably mean that there is something better to do than to make one’s marriage and household, and by better they invariably mean “employment outside the home.”

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I know that I am in dangerous territory, and so I had better be plain: what I have to say about marriage and household I mean to apply to men as much as to women. I do not believe that there is anything better to do than to make one’s marriage and household, whether one is a man or a woman. I do not believe that “employment outside the home” is as valuable or important or satisfying as employment at home, for either men or women. It is clear to me from my experience as a teacher, for example, that children need an ordinary daily association with both parents. They need to see their parents at work; they need, at first, to play at the work they see their parents doing, and then they need to work with their parents. It does not matter so much that this working together should be what is called “quality time,” but it matters a great deal that the work done should have the dignity of economic value.

I should say too that I understand how fortunate I have been in being able to do an appreciable part of my work at home. I know that in many marriages both husband and wife are now finding it necessary to work away from home. This issue, of course, is troubled by the question of what is meant by “necessary,” but it is true that a family living that not so long ago was ordinarily supplied by one job now routinely requires two or more. My interest is not to quarrel with individuals, men or women, who work away from home, but rather to ask why we should consider this general working away from home to be a desirable state of things, either for people or for marriage, for our society or for our country.

If I had written in my essay that my wife worked as a typist and editor for a publisher, doing the same work that she does for me, no feminists, I daresay, would have written to Harper’s to attack me for exploiting her—even though, for all they knew, I might have forced her to do such work in order to keep me in gambling money. It would have been assumed as a matter of course that if she had a job away from home she was a “liberated woman,” possessed of a dignity that no home could confer upon her.

As I have said before, I understand that one cannot construct an adequate public defense of a private life. Anything that I might say here about my marriage would be immediately (and rightly) suspect on the ground that it would be only my testimony. But for the sake of argument, let us suppose that whatever work my wife does, as a member of our marriage and household, she does both as a full economic partner and as her own boss, and let us suppose that the economy we have is adequate to our needs. Why, granting that supposition, should anyone assume that my wife would increase her freedom or dignity or satisfaction by becoming the employee of a boss, who would be in turn also a corporate underling and in no sense a partner?

Why would any woman who would refuse, properly, to take the marital vow of obedience (on the ground, presumably, that subservience to a mere human being is beneath human dignity) then regard as “liberating” a job that puts her under the authority of a boss (man or woman) whose authority specifically requires and expects obedience? It is easy enough to see why women came to object to the role of Blondie, a mostly decorative custodian of a degraded, consumptive modern household, preoccupied with clothes, shopping, gossip, and outwitting her husband. But are we to assume that one may fittingly cease to be Blondie by becoming Dagwood? Is the life of a corporate underling— even acknowledging that corporate underlings are well paid—an acceptable end to our quest for human dignity and worth? It is clear enough by now that one does not cease to be an underling by reaching “the top.” Corporate life is composed only of lower underlings and higher underlings. Bosses are everywhere, and all the bosses are underlings. This is invariably revealed when the time comes for accepting responsibility for something unpleasant, such as the Exxon fiasco in Prince William Sound, for which certain lower underlings are blamed but no higher underling is responsible. The underlings at the top, like telephone operators, have authority and power, but no responsibility.

And the oppressiveness of some of this office work defies belief. Edward Mendelson (in the New Republic, February 22, 1988) speaks of “the office worker whose computer keystrokes are monitored by the central computer in the personnel office, and who will be fired if the keystrokes-per-minute figure doesn’t match the corporate quota.” (Mr. Mendelson does not say what form of drudgery this worker is being saved from.) And what are we to say of the diversely skilled country housewife who now bores the same six holes day after day on an assembly line? What higher form of womanhood or humanity is she consenting to evolving toward?

How, I am asking, can women improve themselves by submitting to the same specialization, degradation, trivialization, and tyrannization of work that men have submitted to? And that question is made legitimate by another: How have men improved themselves by submitting to it? The answer is that men have not, and women cannot, improve themselves by submitting to it.

Women have complained, justly, about the behavior of “macho” men. But despite their he-man pretensions and their captivation by masculine heroes of sports, war, and the Old West, most men are now entirely accustomed to obeying and currying the favor of their bosses. Because of this, of course, they hate their jobs—they mutter, “Thank God it’s Friday” and “Pretty good for Monday”— but they do as they are told. They are more compliant than most housewives have been. Their characters combine feudal submissiveness with modern helplessness. They have accepted almost without protest, and often with consumptive relief, their dispossession of any usable property and, with that, their loss of economic independence and their consequent subordination to bosses. They have submitted to the destruction of the household economy and thus of the household, to the loss of home employment and self-employment, to the disintegration of their families and communities, to the desecration and pillage of their country, and they have continued abjectly to believe, obey, and vote for the people who have most eagerly abetted this ruin and who have most profited from it. These men, moreover, are helpless to do anything for themselves or anyone else without money, and so for money they do whatever they are told. They know that their ability to be useful is precisely defined by their willingness to be somebody else’s tool. Is it any wonder that they talk tough and worship athletes and cowboys? Is it any wonder that some of them are violent?

It is clear that women cannot justly be excluded from the daily fracas by which the industrial economy divides the spoils of society and nature, but their inclusion is a poor justice and no reason for applause. The enterprise is as devastating with women in it as it was before. There is no sign that women are exerting a “civilizing influence” upon it. To have an equal part in our juggernaut of national vandalism is to be a vandal. To call this vandalism “liberation” is to prolong, and even ratify, a dangerous confusion that was once principally masculine.

A broader, deeper criticism is necessary. The problem is not just the exploitation of women by men. A greater problem is that women and men alike are consenting to an economy that exploits women and men and everything else.

Another decent possibility my critics implicitly deny is that of work as a gift. Not one of them supposed that my wife may be a consulting engineer who helps me in her spare time out of the goodness of her heart; instead they suppose that she is “a household drudge.” But what appears to infuriate them the most is their supposition that she works for nothing. They assume—and this is the orthodox assumption of the industrial economy—that the only help worth giving is not given at all, but sold. Love, friendship, neighborliness, compassion, duty—what are they? We are realists. We will be most happy to receive your check.

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The various reductions I have been describing are fairly directly the results of the ongoing revolution of applied science known as “technological progress.” This revolution has provided the means by which both the productive and the consumptive capacities of people could be detached from household and community and made to serve other people’s purely economic ends. It has provided as well a glamor of newness, ease, and affluence that made it seductive even to those who suffered most from it. In its more recent history especially, this revolution has been successful in putting unheard-of quantities of consumer goods and services within the reach of ordinary people. But the technical means of this popular “affluence” has at the same time made possible the gathering of the real property and the real power of the country into fewer and fewer hands.

Some people would like to think that this long sequence of industrial innovations has changed human life and even human nature in fundamental ways. Perhaps it has—but, arguably, almost always for the worse. I know that “techno- logical progress” can be defended, but I observe that the defenses are invariably quantitative—catalogs of statistics on the ownership of automobiles and television sets, for example, or on the increase of life expectancy—and I see that these statistics are always kept carefully apart from the related statistics of soil loss, pollution, social disintegration, and so forth. That is to say, there is never an effort to determine the net result of this progress. The voice of its defenders is not that of the responsible bookkeeper, but that of the propagandist or salesman, who says that the net gain is more than 100 percent—that the thing we have bought has perfectly replaced everything it has cost, and added a great deal more: “You just can’t lose!” We thus have got rich by spending, just as the advertisers have told us we would, and the best of all possible worlds is getting better every day.

The statistics of life expectancy are favorites of the industrial apologists, because they are perhaps the hardest to argue with. Nevertheless, this emphasis on longevity is an excellent example of the way the isolated aims of the industrial mind reduce and distort human life, and also the way statistics corrupt the truth. A long life has indeed always been thought desirable; everything that is alive apparently wishes to continue to live. But until our own time, that sentence would have been qualified: long life is desirable and everything wishes to live up to a point. Past a certain point, and in certain conditions, death becomes preferable to life. Moreover, it was generally agreed that a good life was preferable to one that was merely long, and that the goodness of a life could not be determined by its length. The statisticians of longevity ignore good in both its senses; they do not ask if the prolonged life is virtuous, or if it is satisfactory. If the life is that of a vicious criminal, or if it is inched out in a veritable hell of captivity within the medical industry, no matter—both become statistics to “prove” the good luck of living in our time.

But in general, apart from its own highly specialized standards of quantity and efficiency, “technological progress” has produced a social and ecological decline. Industrial war, except by the most fanatically narrow standards, is worse than war used to be. Industrial agriculture, except by the standards of quantity and mechanical efficiency, diminishes everything it affects. Industrial workmanship is certainly worse than traditional workmanship, and is getting shoddier every day. After forty-odd years, the evidence is everywhere that television, far from proving a great tool of education, is a tool of stupefaction and disintegration. Industrial education has abandoned the old duty of passing on the cultural and intellectual inheritance in favor of baby-sitting and career preparation.

After several generations of “technological progress,” in fact, we have become a people who cannot think about anything important. How far down in the natural order do we have to go to find creatures who raise their young as indifferently as industrial humans now do? Even the English sparrows do not let loose into the streets young sparrows who have no notion of their identity or their adult responsibilities. When else in history would you find “educated” people who know more about sports than about the history of their country, or uneducated people who do not know the stories of their families and communities?

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To ask a still more obvious question, what is the purpose of this technological progress? What higher aim do we think it is serving? Surely the aim cannot be the integrity or happiness of our families, which we have made subordinate to the education system, the television industry, and the consumer economy. Surely it cannot be the integrity or health of our communities, which we esteem even less than we esteem our families. Surely it cannot be love of our country, for we are far more concerned about the desecration of the flag than we are about the desecration of our land. Surely it cannot be the love of God, which counts for at least as little in the daily order of business as the love of family, community, and country.

The higher aims of “technological progress” are money and ease. And this exalted greed for money and ease is disguised and justified by an obscure, cultish faith in “the future.” We do as we do, we say, “for the sake of the future” or “to make a better future for our children.” How we can hope to make a good future by doing badly in the present, we do not say. We cannot think about the future, of course, for the future does not exist: the existence of the future is an article of faith. We can be assured only that, if there is to be a future, the good of it is already implicit in the good things of the present. We do not need to plan or devise a “world of the future”; if we take care of the world of the present, the future will have received full justice from us. A good future is implicit in the soils, forests, grasslands, marshes, deserts, mountains, rivers, lakes, and oceans that we have now, and in the good things of human culture that we have now; the only valid “futurology” available to us is to take care of those things. We have no need to contrive and dabble at “the future of the human race”; we have the same pressing need that we have always had—to love, care for, and teach our children.

And so the question of the desirability of adopting any technological innovation is a question with two possible answers—not one, as has been commonly assumed. If one’s motives are money, ease, and haste to arrive in a technologically determined future, then the answer is foregone, and there is, in fact, no question, and no thought. If one’s motive is the love of family, community, country, and God, then one will have to think, and one may have to decide that the proposed innovation is undesirable.

The question of how to end or reduce dependence on some of the technological innovations already adopted is a baffling one. At least, it baffles me. I have not been able to see, for example, how people living in the country, where there is no public transportation, can give up their automobiles without becoming less useful to each other. And this is because, owing largely to the influence of the automobile, we live too far from each other, and from the things we need, to be able to get about by any other means. Of course, you could do without an automobile, but to do so you would have to disconnect yourself from many obligations. Nothing I have so far been able to think about this problem has satisfied me.

But if we have paid attention to the influence of the automobile on country communities, we know that the desirability of technological innovation is an issue that requires thinking about, and we should have acquired some ability to think about it. Thus if I am partly a writer, and I am offered an expensive machine to help me write, I ought to ask whether or not such a machine is desirable.

I should ask, in the first place, whether or not I wish to purchase a solution to a problem that I do not have. I acknowledge that, as a writer, I need a lot of help. And I have received an abundance of the best of help from my wife, from other members of my family, from friends, from teachers, from editors, and sometimes from readers. These people have helped me out of love or friendship, and perhaps in exchange for some help that I have given them. I suppose I should leave open the possibility that I need more help than I am getting, but I would certainly be ungrateful and greedy to think so.

But a computer, I am told, offers a kind of help that you can’t get from other humans; a computer will help you to write faster, easier, and more. For a while, it seemed to me that every university professor I met told me this. Do I, then, want to write faster, easier, and more? No. My standards are not speed, ease, and quantity. I have already left behind too much evidence that, writing with a pencil, I have written too fast, too easily, and too much. I would like to be a better writer, and for that I need help from other humans, not a machine.

The professors who recommended speed, ease, and quantity to me were, of course, quoting the standards of their universities. The chief concern of the industrial system, which is to say the present university system, is to cheapen work by increasing volume. But implicit in the professors’ recommendation was the idea that one needs to be up with the times. The pace-setting academic intellectuals have lately had a great hankering to be up with the times. They don’t worry about keeping up with the Joneses: as intellectuals, they know that they are supposed to be Nonconformists and Independent Thinkers living at the Cutting Edge of Human Thought. And so they are all a-dither to keep up with the times—which means adopting the latest technological innovations as soon as the Joneses do.

Do I wish to keep up with the times? No.

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My wish simply is to live my life as fully as I can. In both our work and our leisure, I think, we should be so employed. And in our time this means that we must save ourselves from the products that we are asked to buy in order, ultimately, to replace ourselves.

The danger most immediately to be feared in “technological progress” is the degradation and obsolescence of the body. Implicit in the technological revolution from the beginning has been a new version of an old dualism, one always destructive, and now more destructive than ever. For many centuries there have been people who looked upon the body, as upon the natural world, as an encumbrance of the soul, and so have hated the body, as they have hated the natural world, and longed to be free of it. They have seen the body as intolerably imperfect by spiritual standards. More recently, since the beginning of the technological revolution, more and more people have looked upon the body, along with the rest of the natural creation, as intolerably imperfect by mechanical standards. They see the body as an encumbrance of the mind—the mind, that is, as reduced to a set of mechanical ideas that can be implemented in machines—and so they hate it and long to be free of it. The body has limits that the machine does not have; therefore, remove the body from the machine so that the machine can continue as an unlimited idea.

It is odd that simply because of its “sexual freedom” our time should be considered extraordinarily physical. In fact, our “sexual revolution” is mostly an industrial phenomenon, in which the body is used as an idea of pleasure or a pleasure machine with the aim of “freeing” natural pleasure from natural consequence. Like any other industrial enterprise, industrial sexuality seeks to conquer nature by exploiting it and ignoring the consequences, by denying any connection between nature and spirit or body and soul, and by evading social responsibility. The spiritual, physical, and economic costs of this “freedom” are immense, and are characteristically belittled or ignored. The diseases of sexual irresponsibility are regarded as a technological problem and an affront to liberty. Industrial sex, characteristically, establishes its freeness and goodness by an industrial accounting, dutifully toting up numbers of “sexual partners,” orgasms, and so on, with the inevitable industrial implication that the body is somehow a limit on the idea of sex, which will be a great deal more abundant as soon as it can be done by robots.

This hatred of the body and of the body’s life in the natural world, always inherent in the technological revolution (and sometimes explicitly and vengefully so), is of concern to an artist because art, like sexual love, is of the body. Like sexual love, art is of the mind and spirit also, but it is made with the body and it appeals to the senses. To reduce or shortcut the intimacy of the body’s involvement in the making of a work of art (that is, of any artifice, anything made by art) inevitably risks reducing the work of art and the art itself. In addition to the reasons I gave previously, which I still believe are good reasons, I am not going to use a computer because I don’t want to diminish or distort my bodily involvement in my work. I don’t want to deny myself the pleasure of bodily involvement in my work, for that pleasure seems to me to be the sign of an indispensable integrity.

At first glance, writing may seem not nearly so much an art of the body as, say, dancing or gardening or carpentry. And yet language is the most intimately physical of all the artistic means. We have it palpably in our mouths; it is our langue, our tongue. Writing it, we shape it with our hands. Reading aloud what we have written—as we must do, if we are writing carefully—our language passes in at the eyes, out at the mouth, in at the ears; the words are immersed and steeped in the senses of the body before they make sense in the mind. They cannot make sense in the mind until they have made sense in the body. Does shaping one’s words with one’s own hand impart character and quality to them, as does speaking them with one’s own tongue to the satisfaction of one’s own ear? There is no way to prove that it does. On the other hand, there is no way to prove that it does not, and I believe that it does.

The act of writing language down is not so insistently tangible an act as the act of building a house or playing the violin. But to the extent that it is tangible, I love the tangibility of it. The computer apologists, it seems to me, have greatly underrated the value of the handwritten manuscript as an artifact. I don’t mean that a writer should be a fine calligrapher and write for exhibition, but rather that handwriting has a valuable influence on the work so written. I am certainly no calligrapher, but my handwritten pages have a homemade, handmade look to them that both pleases me in itself and suggests the possibility of ready correction. It looks hospitable to improvement. As the longhand is transformed into typescript and then into galley proofs and the printed page, it seems increasingly to resist improvement. More and more spunk is required to mar the clean, final-looking lines of type. I have the notion—again not provable—that the longer I keep a piece of work in longhand, the better it will be.

To me, also, there is a significant difference between ready correction and easy correction. Much is made of the ease of correction in computer work, owing to the insubstantiality of the light-image on the screen; one presses a button and the old version disappears, to be replaced by the new. But because of the substantiality of paper and the consequent difficulty involved, one does not handwrite or typewrite a new page every time a correction is made. A handwritten or typewritten page therefore is usually to some degree a palimpsest; it contains parts and relics of its own history—erasures, passages crossed out, interlineations—suggesting that there is something to go back to as well as something to go forward to. The light-text on the computer screen, by contrast, is an artifact typical of what can only be called the industrial present, a present absolute. A computer destroys the sense of historical succession, just as do other forms of mechanization. The well-crafted table or cabinet embodies the memory of (because it embodies respect for) the tree it was made of and the forest in which the tree stood. The work of certain potters embodies the memory that the clay was dug from the earth. Certain farms contain hospitably the remnants and reminders of the forest or prairie that preceded them. It is possible even for towns and cities to remember farms and forests or prairies. All good human work remembers its history. The best writing, even when printed, is full of intimations that it is the present version of earlier versions of itself, and that its maker inherited the work and the ways of earlier makers. It thus keeps, even in print, a suggestion of the quality of the handwritten page; it is a palimpsest.

Something of this undoubtedly carries over into industrial products. The plastic Clorox jug has a shape and a loop for the forefinger that recalls the stoneware jug that went before it. But something vital is missing. It embodies no memory of its source or sources in the earth or of any human hand involved in its shaping. Or look at a large factory or a power plant or an airport, and see if you can imagine—even if you know—what was there before. In such things materials of the world have entered a kind of orphanhood.

It would be uncharitable and foolish of me to suggest that nothing good will ever be written on a computer. Some of my best friends have computers. I have only said that a computer cannot help you to write better, and I stand by that. (In fact, I know a publisher who says that under the influence of computers—or of the immaculate copy that computers produce—many writers are now writing worse.) But I do say that in using computers writers are flirting with a radical separation of mind and body, the elimination of the work of the body from the work of the mind. The text on the computer screen, and the computer printout too, has a sterile, untouched, factorymade look, like that of a plastic whistle or a new car. The body does not do work like that. The body characterizes everything it touches. What it makes it traces over with the marks of its pulses and breathings, its excitements, hesitations, flaws, and mistakes. On its good work, it leaves the marks of skill, care, and love persisting through hesitations, flaws, and mistakes. And to those of us who love and honor the life of the body in this world, these marks are precious things, necessities of life.

But writing is of the body in yet another way. It is preeminently a walker’s art. It can be done on foot and at large. The beauty of its traditional equipment is simplicity. And cheapness. Going off to the woods, I take a pencil and some paper (any paper—a small notebook, an old envelope, a piece of a feed sack), and I am as well equipped for my work as the president of IBM. I am also free, for the time being at least, of everything that IBM is hooked to. My thoughts will not be coming to me from the power structure or the power grid, but from another direction and way entirely. My mind is free to go with my feet.

I know that there are some people, perhaps many, to whom you cannot appeal on behalf of the body. To them, disembodiment is a goal, and they long for the realm of pure mind—or pure machine; the difference is negligible. Their departure from their bodies, obviously, is much to be desired, but the rest of us had better be warned: they are going to cause a lot of dangerous commotion on their way out.

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Some of my critics were happy to say that my refusal to use a computer would not do any good. I have argued, and am convinced, that it will at least do me some good, and that it may involve me in the preservation of some cultural goods. But what they meant was real, practical, public good. They meant that the materials and energy I save by not buying a computer will not be “signifi- cant.” They meant that no individual’s restraint in the use of technology or energy will be “significant.” That is true.

But each one of us, by “insignificant” individual abuse of the world, contributes to a general abuse that is devastating. And if I were one of thousands or millions of people who could afford a piece of equipment, even one for which they had a conceivable “need,” and yet did not buy it, that would be “signifi- cant.” Why, then, should I hesitate for even a moment to be one, even the first one, of that “significant” number? Thoreau gave the definitive reply to the folly of “significant numbers” a long time ago: Why should anybody wait to do what is right until everybody does it? It is not “significant” to love your own children or to eat your own dinner, either. But normal humans will not wait to love or eat until it is mandated by an act of Congress.

One of my correspondents asked where one is to draw the line. That question returns me to the bewilderment I mentioned earlier: I am unsure where the line ought to be drawn, or how to draw it. But it is an intelligent question, worth losing some sleep over.

I know how to draw the line only where it is easy to draw. It is easy—it is even a luxury—to deny oneself the use of a television set, and I zealously practice that form of self-denial. Every time I see television (at other people’s houses), I am more inclined to congratulate myself on my deprivation. I have no doubt, as I have said, that I am better off without a computer. I joyfully deny myself a motorboat, a camping van, an off-road vehicle, and every other kind of recreational machinery. I have, and want, no “second home.” I suffer very comfortably the lack of colas, TV dinners, and other counterfeit foods and beverages.

I am, however, still in bondage to the automobile industry and the energy companies, which have nothing to recommend them except our dependence on them. I still fly on airplanes, which have nothing to recommend them but speed; they are inconvenient, uncomfortable, undependable, ugly, stinky, and scary. I still cut my wood with a chainsaw, which has nothing to recommend it but speed, and has all the faults of an airplane, except it does not fly.

It is plain to me that the line ought to be drawn without fail wherever it can be drawn easily. And it ought to be easy (though many do not find it so) to refuse to buy what one does not need. If you are already solving your problem with the equipment you have—a pencil, say—why solve it with something more expensive and more damaging? If you don’t have a problem, why pay for a solution? If you love the freedom and elegance of simple tools, why encumber yourself with something complicated?

And yet, if we are ever again to have a world fit and pleasant for little children, we are surely going to have to draw the line where it is not easily drawn. We are going to have to learn to give up things that we have learned (in only a few years, after all) to “need.” I am not an optimist; I am afraid that I won’t live long enough to escape my bondage to the machines. Nevertheless, on every day left to me I will search my mind and circumstances for the means of escape. And I am not without hope. I knew a man who, in the age of chainsaws, went right on cutting his wood with a handsaw and an axe. He was a healthier and a saner man than I am. I shall let his memory trouble my thoughts.

Excerpted from The Art of the Commonplace by Wendell Berry. Edited and introduced by Norman Wirzba. Published by Counterpoint Press. Copyright © 2002 by Wendell Berry. All rights reserved.


Lobster Dinner Robed In A Cotton-Poly Blend

They were clearly upset “with her.”  Was it something “she said?”  They were dawning that expression that people wear when they want to feel offended.

At that moment Alberta abruptly charged up to her and said – in a low but brazen tone, “Leviticus also says that eating shellfish, and intermingling fabrics are ‘forbidden’ too!  …you’re such a hypocrite!  I know for a fact that you unrepentantly partake of shellfish; and you’re clearly wearing blended fabrics at this very moment!”

Just then the chairman of the Blending & Intermingling of Fabrics Pride Parade was cavalcading nearby and overheard their conversation.  The chairman eagerly interrupted Alberta announcing that the annual B&IFPP was coming up in just 3 days, and that he was counting on their enthusiastic participation!  Alberta had always tried her best to be tolerant of people like this, but something in her snapped at that moment and she let slip a less-than-celebratory comment about the B&IFPP which resulted in the instantaneous death of the chairman (the autopsy – which was performed 4 months postmortem …you know how it is what with the members of the B&IFPP being treated like second-rate citizens and what not – revealed the cause of death to be:  Hyper-Sensitivity Leading to Being Extremely Offended).

One of the EMT’s happened to be a member of the PHSWYNW (Pro-Having Sex With Your Neighbor’s Wife) movement, and she also had a bone to pick (for Alberta had resumed her diatribe while they were waiting for the medics to arrive, thus when the EMT arrived she overheard Alberta’s rant).  The EMT quickly jumped on board Alberta’s argument and began to tell sob stories about how people like her were bullied and vilified.  “I slept with the neighbor’s wife to the east, and their 6 year old now gives me dirty looks whenever I take the trash out.  Can you believe that!  Where’s the tolerance.  Why can’t the kids of these people I’m committing adultery with simply develop thicker skin!?  …they act like I’m ruining their family or something.  I’m not hurting anyone, I’m just following my heart!  And it’s high-time we start ACCEPTING adultery as normal (nay – beautiful and to be celebrated) …as normal, beautiful, and celebrated as a lobster dinner!”

Of course by this point the EMT was shouting with such vigor and enthusiasm that The President of the GYCM (Give Your Children to Molech) Institution overheard her.  He happened to be near a microphone (twas one of those that loops around your ear – so as it turns out, he was always near a microphone …but how he managed to have it already connected to the PA system was a mystery for the next 7 billion years – which is precisely where he elected to begin his speech).  “Let us not tarry 7 billion more years!  Ladies and gentlemen, and gentlemen who would choose rather to be ladies, and vice versa, and all other pro-choosers of gender and sexuality.  I have just been listening to some extremely enlightened members of this great council of ours, and I have been inspired and energized …and I simply cannot hold in my passion any longer.  Let us not be narrow-minded (at this the crowd roared with excitement – though none knew what they were cheering about aside from the expression “not be narrow-minded“)!  Let us not be intolerant (the roar arose with even more fervor and unbridled mob-like passion)!  Let us not wallow in provincialism for the next 7 billion years (for that was the precise estimation amongst leading scientists in response to the question: When will the culture be accepting of the lifestyle and practices of GYCM?), let us rather rally at this moment; let us unite in the name of love; let us put away bigotry and embrace the beauty of offering our children to false gods like the mighty Molech!”

The crowd had long-since abandoned any semblance of thoughtful listening, and by this point they were so frenzied and riotous – they did not notice the smoke that had begun to flood the room (in all of the excitement one of the beasts – brought to the convention by the stated clerk of the Beastiality Caucus – had knocked over a torch which had subsequently landed on an extremely flammable curtain tassel on the south end of the convention center).  In all of the nonsensical excitement and hysteria no one seemed to care that their lungs were filling with smoke, and everyone died.

The news outlets quickly picked up the story and blamed those who take Leviticus chapter 18 “too seriously.”  Within two weeks all those who interpret Leviticus 18 using a Christocentric hermeneutic were rounded-up, beheaded, and their heads were placed on stakes and lit as torches in Nero’s garden during his outdoor parties.

the god plan

STEP ONE:  Accumulate, Develop, and Exaggerate Resources.

STEP TWO:  Identify, Develop, and Exaggerate Strengths.

STEP THREE:  Establish & Organize Resources and Strengths in such a way so as to obtain Maximum “Control.”

*Important Note #1:  in order to sufficiently achieve the desired “god” status you must simultaneously strive for (a) The “O Attributes” [omniscience, omnipotence, and omnipresence], and (b) deceit.  The DECEIT is of the utmost importance due to the fact that the “O attributes” are an impossibility for anyone other than the Only True and Living God.  Therefore deceit is necessary (nay – VITAL) to sufficiently dilute our awareness of the obvious reality that we could NEVER actually be God.  One must “dupe themselves” and saturate their “understanding” in the requisite foam of fraudulence prior to “believing” in themselves.

*Important Note #2:  Separation & Smallness are essential to the god plan.  Community (even of the weakest variety) will sooner or later cripple the most sincere efforts of a god complex builder.  One can never exercise too much caution when it comes to distancing themselves from others (if for no other reason than the fact that the “god plan” lies at the heart of every other person on the planet, and there is simply no telling when, where, and/or how their god complex project will effect yours …there are certain risks false gods simply cannot take).  Smallness is also an integral part of the plan.  Many-a’ builder has grown discouraged and defected under the weighty reality that they – despite their best efforts – are simply unable to achieve the goal of the god plan.  Keep it simple, and keep it small.  For example, start with just one room in your house, or a video game, or – best of all – a plot of land in the woods somewhere (far away from the threat of power outages, and/or people).  Early on in the process (and frankly throughout as well) things are fragile, so it’s best to take every precaution and avoid uncertainties.

Good Luck!

You’re an idiot!


Afflicted.  Bearing reproach.  Words “found.”  Words eaten.  Words are his joy.  Words are his delight.  Words tell him that he is called by Your Name O LORD, God of hosts.  Alone.  Lonely.  No rejoicing with them (the “peaceful”the consumers of a cheap cosmetic “cure”).  He sat alone because Your hand was upon him.  You had filled him with indignation.  Why is his pain unceasing?  Why is his wound incurable, refusing to be healed?

The WAR b/t JERUNPOP & The Consumers of the Cheap Cosmetic “Cure” (i.e. The Dotom 1414).


“NO.” – Martin

The question was direct and simple. “Will you marry us?” Martin had his doubts regarding the sincerity of their request, but his suspicions concerning their motives were far outweighed by his own personal conviction. Would HE officiate their wedding ceremony? Could it be, that these men did not know who HE was? Did these men have any idea who they were talking to? Certainly they had to have heard about him. No doubt they were familiar with his reputation. Whatever their motive, there was no denying the fact that these men were intelligent and perceptive, and thus of course they knew about his record. Was it possible that they were ignorant of his treacherous past? He was certain that almost everyone had heard of his disloyalty and faithlessness. There was no getting around it, there was no denying it – he had acted in the most vile and vapid manner …his history was inescapably, unimaginably, wretched and vacuous. He himself had wondered why he was the one chosen to receive the initial treatment. Of course he was ecstatic to have such a gift given to him, but clearly nothing qualified him to be the recipient, and he honestly understood why so many people were upset with the decision. But the indignation over that event was nothing compared to the outrage aimed at him only 6 months later, when it came to light that he had utterly, maliciously, and fatuously defied and defiled the gift. All his promises and boastings had been boldfaced lies. He had deliberately forgotten to be grateful, and he was the epitome of arrogance. His actions had accurately been dubbed “an absurd and all-new LOW!”; “an unprecedented display of depravity and disloyalty”; and “worse than the devil himself!” Witnesses were called. The case was cut-and-dried, but even still – the testimonies had sent horrific shudders through the jury, and the atmosphere of the courtroom had literally felt, tasted, and smelled absolutely appalling. Convicted on two counts of EVIL was the final verdict. He was convicted in the first-degree of forsaking the Author and Giver of the Fountain of Life, and he was convicted of hewing independent cisterns of his own autonomous design – which of course were never operational (they where in fact fatally flawed from the start, and ought to have been condemned outright as a disastrous waste of resources). Everything that he had ever been after – following his own natural cravings; his intuitive orientations and appetites – turned out to be lies (lies of his own making). His lies ate him alive, and devoured his soul …and all of it – he had brought upon himself. He had occasionally attempted to manufacture a self-righteous victim card, but that only made things worse – it only exacerbated his shame and guilt, and increasingly convinced him that he couldn’t shake his past …his evil incessantly chastised him. He inescapably KNEW – beyond any shadow of a doubt – that he was evil and bitter; dead wrong and wretched. And it was here – in this place; in that wretched condition – where he met the man who paid for his crimes. Up to this point he couldn’t fathom anything more appalling or shocking than his own evil, but in the presence of this penalty payer, his heinous crimes were being eclipsed by something infinitely more appalling, and unimaginably shocking! This exceedingly & exclusively exceptional man had no form, majesty, or beauty that made him desirable. He was despised and rejected, a man of sorrows, and comprehensively acquainted with grief. He was crucified and mocked; the sight was so gruesome people couldn’t even bear to glance in his direction …he was utterly and entirely despised and forsaken. And this entire grisly, repugnant, and horrific episode was happening on behalf of the guilty man. Though the one suffering was undeniably innocent, he was nonetheless insistent upon bearing the full weight of the criminal’s griefs, and enduring the entire burden of the malefactor’s sorrows. The punishment was excruciating …inestimably crushing. Upon this perfect man was the chastisement that brought the convict peace, and by this mediator’s wounds the hoodlum received healing. This second gift – even more undeserving than the first – is what dominated and defined this man. So back to Martin’s question, did these fellows asking “Will you marry us?” have any clue who they were soliciting? Did they honestly want a man like him officiating what they no doubt believed to be one of the most celebrated days of their lives? Would not his speech and conduct be nothing short of abhorrent in the eyes of their wedding guests? There was something strange and demonic afoot, and Martin was bewildered. These two fellows bore many signs which were out of accord with the appalling news which he himself so deeply and desperately cherished and clung to (news which would – without question – be central in any wedding ceremony officiated by him), however they did bear one of the iconic and classic marks of the wrath of God aimed at God Himself. As has already been mentioned, Martin was – to say the least – extremely befuddled. Martin and the two men simply sat silently (except for the sobbing sounds coming from the body and soul of Martin) – the question, all the while just sitting there, waiting to be answered.

Fever Pitch

Hank had it.  He didn’t know where it came from.  He was almost entirely certain that he had not elected it, but he was massively arrogant – so he was hesitant to rule out the possibility that it was of his own doing.  The mystifying thing about it was simply this …it was very much out of accord with his natural disposition.  He had never made a decision like this before.  But here it was.  It was happening.  Explanations escaped Hank at this moment.  Normally Hank always had an explanation – even if he didn’t have a clue about the subject matter – without fail, he would conjure up some type of elucidation.  But for this experience …Hank had nothing.  Which – as it turns out – was precisely the thing needed!

Bangshagainstaboom – – – >

Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly, teaching and admonishing one another in all wisdom, singing psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, with thankfulness in your hearts to God. – Colossians 3:16

And then …there was this whole business about the THEME.  Why didn’t he have o…  OH!  He did.  He definitely did.  But was it the joy of his heart?  Where was joy (it had always seemed a pesky and elusive thing for him).  Certainly his affection was attached to it, but was it a soul-stabilizing reality in his life …was it an anchor for his affection, or was it always at large and ambiguous?

Reduced to utter despair.  What kind of theme was that.  Flunky theme.  Rotten tomatoes.  Hank was done with it.  Time for a new theme.  Conjure?  That would be hopeless …right back to the same ole theme as before.  Self-reliance?  …Compelled to “Try And Ctrl”?  Was he really that smart?  Smarter than YHWH?  He had declared it so?  But were his words as potent as he personally proclaimed?  What about the accident? …and what did the P mean by “1633”?  What had the song sire meant by Dissolved by Thy Goodness?  Hank was having a hard time making sense of things at this point.  Was the S germinating?

The fever pitch happened when he hit bottom.  Utterly reduced to despair.  And that’s when the infinite solace struck.  “IAMw/U” was all that was uttered.  Circumstantially (as far as outward appearances appeared) everything was the same.  Homogeneity seemed to reign in terms of what could be seen.  Same.  Same.  Same.  But inside something HETERO had happened to him!  Something different.  Something NOT the same.  Something inherently diverse.  Something alien.  Something transcendentally True, Good, and Beautiful.


He just burst in.  He didn’t knock.  He didn’t ring the doorbell.  He just let himself in.

Me:  “What are you doing here!?”  “You’re not the boss of me!”

Paul:  “I have the floor.”

Me:  “Wha…”

Paul:  “Shut-up, and listen. …Because of the profoundly blinding power of remaining/indwelling sin – every pastor needs to recognize that self-examination (i.e. being objective about one’s self) is a COMMUNITY PROJECT.  …you’re envious of others, and it doesn’t grieve you.  You’ve worked hard to prohibit grief and lament in this area of your life.  Your affair with envy is precious to you.  You’ve poured yourself into it, and that prolific prostitution of yours has caused, and sustained, and nurtured personal pride capitol.  You’re in too deep.  You can’t get out.  You gossip about the people you’re called to care about and love.  You preach to please people and win favorable perceptions.  And you’ve worked incredibly hard not to allow this adultery to bother you.  You’re blind.  AND – you’re blind to the fact that your blind.  …AT THE END OF THE DAY – YOU’LL EITHER BE REPENTANT OR “RIGHT.”

Me: “Bu…”

Paul:  “Shut-up – – – > lust doesn’t merely lust for more lust – it lusts for the “real” thing.  You take Jesus with you everywhere.”


Dr. H refused to treat them.  Why?  Because Dr. H was a bad doc.?  Because Dr. H didn’t care about his patients?  These particular people were no patients.  They had massive patient potential, but for the time being, they weren’t the patient.  They were terrorists.  They walked into the hospital and demanded all the cures.  Why?  To apply them to their own lives?  No – they adamantly believed that they had no disease/no need for such a drastic cure.  So WHY did they want the cure!?  WHY were they so quick to claim the cure!?  …With bombs strapped to their bodies – insidiously threatening to blow up everyone in the hospital they were demanding the cure in order to waste them on no one …their design was to destroy the cure.  They championed the cure, and they marched “for the cure” …but the ultimate design was to trample and curse the cure.  Dr. H had a sincere heart for seeing people cured.  These militants were shrewd, and perhaps there was something principally commendable in the mere shrewdness of their agenda, but the spirit and purposes of their plan was hellish, and Dr. H had to stand his ground.  Even if it meant his dea…

12:51 p.m. July 14th, 2015 Dr. H was martyred for refusing to give the cure to those who sought to destroy it.




He was shopping.  Something unshakable.  Flimsy – he had loads of those.  Fickle – ‘o plenty.  Foundation …that’s what he was looking for.  The LGBT had offered.  He had accepted.  Reduced to Utter Despair.  A long time passed.  Wallowing – joyless – in utter despair and death and depression.  Satisfaction = flat lined.

So the heathen gods placed upon the gold…a terrible curse. Any mortal that removes but a single piece from that stone chest shall be punished for eternity.

Find it, we did. There be the chest. Inside be the gold. And we took ’em all. We spent ’em and traded ’em and frittered ’em away on drink and food and pleasurable company. The more we gave ’em away, the more we came to realize…the drink would not satisfy, food turned to ash in our mouths, and all the pleasurable company in the world could not slake our lust. We are cursed men, Miss Turner. Compelled by greed, we were, but now…we are consumed by it.” ―Hector Barbossa

Security = none – – – > and somehow – you’d think security would be meaningless to satisfactionless people – the utter lack of security exacerbated the problem …the quest for survival was stronger and more enslaving than ever!


And that’s where he met the people of EAME.  Wha!?  This was unlike anything he had ever seen!

Christian Liberty [Part XI]

Free to be appalled at – and disgusted with – the reality that you’re an egomaniac.  You are FAR MORE concerned, and preoccupied, and obsessed, and infatuated with your own reputation than you are with the Honor, and Glory, and Praiseworthiness, and Infatuation-worthiness, and Preoccupation-worthiness of God’s eternally and infinitely Hallowed Name!

At that time the disciples came to Jesus, saying, “Who is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven?” (Matthew 18:1)

And they came to Capernaum. And when he was in the house he asked them, “What were you discussing on the way?” But they kept silent, for on the way they had argued with one another about who was the greatest. (Mark 9:33-34)

An argument arose among them as to which of them was the greatest. (Luke 9:46)

A dispute also arose among them, as to which of them was to be regarded as the greatest. (Luke 22:24)

Then the mother of the sons of Zebedee came up to him with her sons, and kneeling before him she asked him for something. And he said to her, “What do you want?” She said to him, “Say that these two sons of mine are to sit, one at your right hand and one at your left, in your kingdom.” Jesus answered, “You do not know what you are asking. Are you able to drink the cup that I am to drink?” They said to him, “We are able.” (Matthew 20:20-22)

Peter answered him, “Though they all fall away because of you, I will never fall away.” Jesus said to him, “Truly, I tell you, this very night, before the rooster crows, you will deny me three times.” Peter said to him, “Even if I must die with you, I will not deny you!” And all the disciples said the same. (Matthew 26:33-35)

Seeds & Leaven Lead to Satisfaction

For all the vines at present are so many roots in a dry ground.  Black, dry, twisted, gnarled, hacked at their roots with axes, and all hacked up their stems and branches with the frosts of winter:  there is no tree, or plant, or bush in all the land so unpromising, so almost forbidding to look at, as just the vine.  No language could describe to one who had not seen it with his own astonished eyes, the picture of death that all the vineyards are at present. …nevertheless, be sure that in spite of all appearances at present this land will in a few months be covered with grapes.

– Alexander Whyte writing to his pal James Stewart from near Grenoble, France.

He put another parable before them, saying, “The kingdom of heaven is like a grain of mustard seed that a man took and sowed in his field. It is the smallest of all seeds, but when it has grown it is larger than all the garden plants and becomes a tree, so that the birds of the air come and make nests in its branches.” He told them another parable. “The kingdom of heaven is like leaven that a woman took and hid in three measures of flour, till it was all leavened.” (Matthew 13:31-33)

Being asked by the Pharisees when the kingdom of God would come, he answered them, “The kingdom of God is not coming in ways that can be observed, nor will they say, ‘Look, here it is!’ or ‘There!’ for behold, the kingdom of God is in the midst of you.” (Luke 17:20-21)

Notes From Jeremiah Chapters III – V

I have played the whore with many lovers (ravished all over town).  Vile whoredom is my lifestyle, it is my addiction …and yet, I refuse to be ashamed of my adultery, and I refuse to return to my Only True Lover.  I am comprehensively evil.  On every high hill, and under every green tree I have played the whore.  I have taught and trained my siblings how to be adulterers.  I am wretchedly & densely depraved, and thus I regard my whoredom lightly – nothing to be remorseful about.  I refuse to return to my Only True Lover.  I refuse to acknowledge my guilt and apostasy.  Surely, as a treacherous wife leaves her husband, so have I been treacherous to God – my Only True Lover (the One & Only Good Shepherd of my life, and Pure Pilot of my soul …the Only way to pleasant pastures and a heritage beyond belief!).  I am wed to my delusion.  I am devoted to my orgies.  I reject True Salvation in favor of sordid and shabby “lovers.”  I am eaten alive; devoured by my sinful self, my guilt, and my shame.  Wretched man that I am!  Nothing good dwells in me.  I have absolutely no inherent resolve – or even the slightest intuitive bent or inclination – to return to my Only True Lover.  I have no will-power to remove the detestable things from my presence.  I waver wretchedly at the slightest wind of temptation; I yield to the most negligible allurements.  God – Thou must break up the fallow ground of my soul, and keep me from sowing among thorns or else I am absolutely condemned.  Thou must circumcise my heart, and make it Thine own …otherwise I am devoured & destroyed.  Lamentation is the theme of my song.  Even this I have had to receive – lamentation tis a gracious gift from God!  For where didst I get eyes to see my sin?  My courage is weakness.  My power is pathetic.  My sin is appalling.  My heresy is astounding!  Woe to me, for I am ruined!  Wash my heart O God, cleanse me from evil that I may be saved.  How long shall my wicked thoughts lodge within me?  I am foolish – I have forgotten the Creator and Sustainer of my life!  I am a stupid child, I have no understanding.  I am wise in doing evil, but how to do good – I haven’t the foggiest idea.  All creation mourns minus me.  Wretched man that I am!  I have come up with Cheap Cosmetic “Cures” …but in vain I beautify myself.  I have Only One True Lover – all the others despise me and seek my life.  Woe is me, I am fainting before murderers.  These things that I’m after will eat me alive.  Run the entirety of town and you shall find no truth, goodness, or beauty – I have constructed and generated only evil.  Though I say, “As the Lord lives,” yet I swear falsely.  I have felt no anguish, I have refused correction, and I have refused to repent.  I have no sense; for I do not know the way of the LORD.  My transgressions are many, and my apostasies are great.  Pardon is impossible.  When God blessed me and fed me to the full, I committed adultery and trooped to the houses of whores (I perverted, corrupted, and defiled God’s good gifts).  I was a well-fed lusty stallion, neighing for my neighbor’s wife.  Punishment is the only future possible.  I have spoken falsely of the LORD and have said, “He will do nothing; no disaster will come upon me, nor shall I see sword or famine.”  I have paid the prophets to preach wind, and I have exiled the Word of God from the world.  I am fit only for wrath.  To be consumed by God’s vengeance is the only cure.  I cry “Why!?” amidst affliction and discomfort, still clinging to the notion that I myself am righteous, wise, innocent, and sovereign.  I desensitize myself, and deliberately forget the evil of forsaking God in order to serve foreign gods in the land.  Give me ears to hear God!  Make me sensible, for I am senseless through and through.  I have eyes but I do not see.  I have ears but I do not hear.  How am I so dense as to not fear the LORD!?  How am I so diluted that I tremble not at the sound of His steps?  How wretchedly insane that I somehow feel bigger than God.  I have not said in my heart, “Let me fear the LORD my God,” who gives rain in its season, and keeps for us the weeks appointed for the harvest.  My iniquities have turned these away, and my sins have kept good from me.  I harbor and nurture wickedness.  My house if full of deceit.  I am a glutton for sin, and I have grown fat and sleek – ripe for the demons who seek to devour me.  I know no bounds in deeds of evil, and I judge not with justice.  Punishment is the only possibility.  I am appalling and horrible.  My heresy and my structures of self-made sovereignty condemn me.  Wretched man that I am! …who will deliver me from myself!?


“You’re calling it a ‘Gospel’!?”


“But I thought that you were writing about the bloke who was publicly shamed and executed.”

“Yeah that’s right.”

“The authorities aren’t going to agree with this …they guard their word ‘Gospel’ pretty closely.”

“He is the authority.”

“How do you figure?”

“Well, when He was with the governor, He wasn’t saying much, which the governor found irritating.  So the governor said, “You will not speak to me? Do you not know that I have authority to release you and authority to crucify you?” And He answered, “You would have no authority over me at all unless it had been given you from above.”

“Okay, perhaps He said that, perhaps He didn’t …the fact of the matter is that the word ‘Gospel’ doesn’t apply because He’s dead.”

“Actually He was dead.  He’s more alive than ever now.  And His dying was His decision.  No one took His life from Him, but He laid it down of His own accord. He has the authority to lay it down, and He has the authority to take it up again.  …Both of which He did emphatically.”

“That’s going to be hard to prove.  Look bro, I don’t disagree with you that it’s an interesting story (very intriguing to say the least).  And I will admit that the earthquake and the sky going black in the middle of the day is newsworthy stuff.  And perhaps there are even some interesting side stories that might be worth calling attention to – for example, the vandals who tore the temple curtain during the quake chaos are still at large; and of course the grave robbers still haven’t been found either, but I wouldn’t bother too much with that story because it’s already been picked-over by all the major news outlets, and certainly nothing of any durability will come of it.  I guess what I’m getting at is simply this, it seems that this story has run its course, and to continue broadcasting will soon be white noise …not to mention – and please don’t take offense when I say this – your title is dishonest.  I know, I know, you want to make a case for this man (you feel for Him …and I suppose I sort of understand – it was a gruesome bit of business what happened to Him), but I’m telling you – to imply that He is a Conqueror, a King, the organizer of a New World Order doesn’t square with the facts, and it will no doubt get you into some significant trouble with the emperor.”

“I understand what you’re saying, and your comments are valuable, but I’m gonna ignore your advice.”

“The cuss you are.”

[those last two lines are straight from the movie Fantastic Mr. Fox …credit where it’s due]

“You’re upset because you care.  I get where you’re coming from, but I have to call it what it is.  It is, in fact, a Gospel.  I see what you’re saying, and I agree that people will perceive it as a paradox at best – and more likely most will reject it as foolishness, and perhaps many will even see it as a shameful stumbling block.  But He is in fact The True King.  He absolutely came to inaugurate a NWO.  The crucifixion was the indispensable cornerstone of the entire plan.  He has Conquered! – via the cross and His rising from the dead, and there is no stopping the expansion of His kingdom.  The Roman Empire will be long dead and gone while His Kingdom unquenchably marches to its consummate moment, dominating to the ends of the earth, every tongue confessing the Lordship of Christ the King, every knee bowing in submission to the High King of Heaven.”

Christian Liberty [Part X]

Free to be a treasure hunter.  You can have all types of other things – even good things – and not have Jesus.  You can have an intellectually satisfying theological life.  You can have a robust spiritual and emotional life.  You can be highly accomplished – even in religious ways. …and yet, you can – somehow – be utterly without Jesus.  The crucial questions are:  Do you KNOW Him?  Does He KNOW you?  Here, precisely here, is true treasure!  To KNOW Him (John 17:3).  To be with Jesus.  To belong to Jesus.  To see how infinitely undeserving you are that He should remotely look upon you at all – and even if remotely looked upon, to know that it would result in more than mere annihilation – but wrath and punishment beyond measure …and yet here you are being regarded and celebrated as co-heir and cherished bride of Jesus Christ the Savior and Lord of sinners, the King of kings, the Only Son of God!  To be with Christ in paradise is unimaginably unfair, unbelievable, and unprecedented.  You – in and of yourself – have absolutely no business being there!  But that’s just the thing, you – yourself solo/independent/autonomous – aren’t there.  That version of you has been crucified with Christ and it is no longer you who live, but Christ who lives in you.  And the life you now live in the flesh you live by faith in the Son of God, who loved you and gave Himself for you (Gal. 2:20).